Monday, July 27, 2009

A lump in my throat...


After a very long few years of cancer, we put my cat Trina down today. For any of you who have had to put a pet down you know it's an incredibly difficult thing to do. There is something so wrong about it. One thinks about the will to survive and wishing you could read their minds so that they could tell you how they feel and what to do. I knew this day was coming, but even this morning she was still taking swipes at the dog (a source of entertainment for her) and jumped on my lap for a good neck scratch. I know she had to be in pain, Sunday night one of her tumors had a slight rupture and I knew it was only going to get worse. She had been through two surgeries, the cancer had spread and I suppose I could have kept taking her in for surgeries, but to what outcome? More suffering for something she could never recover from. I know I did the right thing, I know she has not been feeling well, but it's still a sick feeling to drive her to the animal hospital. You just wonder what they think, if they know.
I don't know what happens after you die, but part of me thinks maybe she is with her original owner now. She spent the first 3 years of her life with an elderly lady who passed away before she came to live with me.
I hope this is where she is and they are happy to see one another.

4 comments:

TREEHUGGER said...

I haven't had to do that yet but I can imagine how hard it was for you. I'm so sorry. You did the right thing- no doubt. It's hard to believe that when you are in the moment I'm sure.

sweet bait said...

Thanks Tiffany, it's strange because it really was harder than I thought it would be. It's not that there aren't harder things that happen in life, it's just sad. I hate sad.

Tricia said...

oh god, I've been there and know I will be again. It is like cutting out a piece of your heart. I still miss my Claudia and it has been over a year. I thought I could prepare for it too, but it is just not possible. As time goes on I can more easily remember the fun laughter and light she brought into our lives without crying (although I'm crying now.)

It is sad. very very sad and it hurts. I hope the good memories will soon outweigh the pain.

I'll be thinking of you and Trina.

Organic Meatbag said...

So sorry to hear about your cat...

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