Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Feeling like a Traitor...
Tomorrow is my last official day still in the Hoosier state. I’m excited about moving, but it’s certainly bittersweet. This is my cat, Trina. The last few years with her have been tough. She has cancer and has been through two surgeries. She is a super resilient little thing. As of October it has been a year that the vet told me she would live only about 2 more weeks. Her tumor came back with a vengeance just 2 weeks after her second surgery. I had prepared myself and resigned to the fact that she would have to be put down. The vet told me when it seemed like her days were getting bad just to bring her in and they would take care of her…ie, THE SHOT.
As fate would have it, she never seemed to act any different. She is much skinnier than she was, even though she still eats like a pig. Apparently the type of tumor she has “feeds” and they eat the same but loose weight. She still chases the dog and for the most part is her usual self. The last month or so I have noticed her sleeping more and I really thought I would end up putting her down before my move. But, I just don’t think she is ready to go yet. I’m so torn up about leaving her, but I know the move would be hard for her, not to mention my boyfriend is allergic (and we will be living together) and my parents have offered to take care of her for me. She knows them, and she really likes my dad…but still it breaks my heart and I can’t stop crying about it. It’s turns my stomach the thought of saying goodbye to her, mostly because I know she won’t be here much longer, but also that I’m leaving her when I feel like I should be here for her. So there you have it, I’m a huge traitor. I know there are much worse things in the world, but it still feels crappy.
Posted by The Dream Queen at 8:10 PM